I think that in the past months, I have grown and changed more than in any part of my life. I have been experiencing, tasted, and made so many different things. I know that my friends and family are proud of me. Even I am proud of myself for the first time in a very long time. I know that I should be proud of myself whenever I do something that receives an award or gets posted in the newpaper. But most of the time I am not proud of myself because I think I can do something better in the future that will blast everything else out of the water.
My biggest thing I am proud about is becoming an exchange student. I mean it has always been a dream. And the fact that I actually achieved my dream has never made myself more proud in my whole life. Most children when they are young dream about becoming a teacher or a doctor or a firefighter. My dream was to become an exchange student. It would give me the chance to explore the world while I was young. And it would give me an idea of what I might want to be when I become an adult. I want to be an ultrasound tech. I have known that for awhile now. And I have to go to college to become one. I could possibly study abroad somewhere.
I am also proud that I have tried new foods that before I would have never tried them. My parents always used to say that they were good and that I would like them when I got older. I never truly believed them until it actually happened. I started to like Hash (which contains fried ham, potatoes, carrots, and sometimes onions), lightly toasted bread with peanut butter, fish with breading, and a special salad. I never would have thought I would have liked some of those foods. But now that I have given them a taste from a different perspective, I like them.
I have done something off my bucket list. I know I seem young to have a bucket list, but we can die at anytime. And we might as well live our lives while we are still young and breathing. I have always liked being on ropes course and being high in the sky. Well since I have been in Sweden, I have played on a ropes course at 9:00pm. And loved every second of it. I always get an adrenalin rush from doing things that are a little more risky. But so doesn't everyone else. When I say risky, I mean there were two hooks that we had to clip in and I rarely clipped them both in. I could have fallen at anytime and risk serious injury. But I didn't because I knew what I was doing.
Another thing I have done that I am proud of is I have planned some of my future out. I thought about what goals I want to have in life and how I plan to reach those goals. I have decided that I want to live somewhere different, go to college, make friends in yet another place (just as I am doing now), and actually try to get somewhere in life. I know people that waste their time doing drugs, skipping school, having sex with random people, getting drunk almost all the time, and are never around to be with their families. I don't want that. I mean I want to be at school and actually learn something that will get me somewhere. I want to be with my parents and my brothers as much as I can. I love them with all my heart and I would do anything to make them all proud. I have friends that I hang out with all the time and I have friends that I mainly see just at school or sometimes see while I am downtown. And I like it. My friends are always behind my back on every decision that I have made. I mean they are sad that I am not home, but it doesn't mean they aren't proud of me and where I have gotten.
I have learned skills that I know I will need for when I get older. I have become independent with my own decisions. I decided that I wanted to do certain things with my life and I have kept my word to them. Nothing can change my mind about them either. I have watched and learned how to get the skills. At first, I failed when trying to use them. But as I practied them and got used to them, I became better at using them and made not only myself, but my family and friends proud of me.
I know that people don't like to think that someone can change so easily. But it's more than true. I know that I have changed as a person over the past six months. I don't think I could ever like to go back to the person that I as before I left for my exchange. I'm not saying that I was a bad person or was going down the wrong path, but I feel as if I was not as self aware as I am now. I am a more understanding of everything. Even before I came to Sweden, I knew that not everything goes the way that you want it to go. But now, I seem to understand it a lot better. And I respect that it happens. I might not like that it does happen. But I am okay with it.
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